I'M BACK IN THE BLOGGING WORLD!!!!!!
HEY EVERY BODY!!!!!!! i'm back!!!!! hahaha.....
quick updates..... i dun enjoy going to work anymore thanx to my new supervisor....
but i'm still not leaving RAFFLES MEDICAL yet.....
turning 21 soon.... cant wait for my advance party at the chalet....
invited as many frens i can get hold of.... but dunnoe d outcum... dun care.....
my along and angah will b there.....
these two are my priorities....
i want people to know the two faces who had been giving me strength and d reason for living....
lyfe hadnt been easy for me....
but den again it nvr was..... but as da saying said....
u will b stronger by evry suffering dat u haf to face...
susah dulu, senang kemudian...... anyway, i gotta go....
will be udating again... if not here, i'll be updating thru my
friendster account.... peace peach and peaches....
luv ya........
Sigining Off @ [ 11:46 PM ]
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Friday, November 24, 2006
... disappointed ....
i'm disappointed and sad.....
i care so much for my frens....
and i know they do care about me too....
and maybe bcoz of dat, they refused to tell me wad's bothering them.....
well, HELLO PEOPLE!!!!!
dun u guys realise, wadeva's bothering u guys are actually bothering me too????
huh????
stop pretending u're fine wen u're not....
. i know u guys well enough.....
and i dun think u guys know me well enough....
aww.... so sad... anyways, Ii'm stressed up.... so tired.....
and shafiqah is driving me crazy currently on the phone .... pushing me to go out on a date...
a blind date.... okay she called it a hang out....
hello crazy girl....it's so not me....
......okaylah got to go.......
Sigining Off @ [ 7:06 PM ]
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Tuesday, November 14, 2006
aint getting any better....
my life around my family aint getting any better......
sumtymz i just feel dat i forgot how to luv them....
d only person at home i express my luv to is my adik....
and she is d only person who express her luv to me too....
it's a poor thing she failed all of her subjects.....
and as usual, my mum blames d two elder sister......
"ada kakak2 pun tak leh harap".....
she forgot dat we're working is it????
i've been sick for the past two days...... y'day i felt worst coz, i'm not only sick....
but i felt hurt and totally depressed by mum.... i dunnoelah.... i'm juz too sad......
but after toking to fariz and especially doreen.....( i horribly wants to talk to ash or ayun the first two person dat i badly wants to tok with but cant reach them) i felt slightly better.... thanx doreen.... thanx fariz.......
klah i gotta go.... wanna haf a quick nap first before opening clini.... hahahaha nytes.....
Sigining Off @ [ 7:38 AM ]
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Saturday, November 11, 2006
.....i'm so upset......
guys i want all of u to picture this.....
how do u feel wen u found sumthing that is so dear to u ruined.....
and d person whom u know for sure did it wont admit it????
i'm lyk so upset and frustrated.... i love dat thing so much.....
it's d only thing dat belongs to me that i can proudly say that it's mine.....
i dunnoe whether i can forgive her for that.....
anyways.... happy story next....
went to vivocity twice.... the first tym was with joey, fariz, and alfie and shahdan.....
okaylah was fun.... i smiled and laugh my way throughout..... damn joey.... u do have good taste.... ur date's cute....
the 2nd tym was wif fiqah, fyza ayun and adi......
it was a blast.... wen i'm around fiqah(who refused to grow up)
i feel lyk a child again.... yes i'm crazy.... and i know that... it's just dat wen i'm around her, i'm crazier......we had loads of fun together.....
drop by for a short while to see fariz....
his frenz were there too.. k lah dorg fun jugak.... hopefully i get a chance to know them better....
they seems cool.....
i guess, sum of u will be surprised and guess am i frens again wif fariz??
answer yes.... i totally let go of the past wen he make an effort to call me and greet me hari raya on the first day......
it really touched me lah... he seems sincere enough..... anyways, if i can forgive sumone lyk fiqah. y cant i forgive him.... yes., i know i'm too forgiving..... but if god who creates mankind can forgive anybody, y cant i???? a hopeless helpless human being....
still waiting for the days to go out with him and his frens again....
klah...gtg.... see ya peeps.... TAKING CARES....
Sigining Off @ [ 3:06 PM ]
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Thursday, October 05, 2006
annoying people annoys me badly....
wad's wrong with u??? if u wanna tok, tok.... can u stop leaving me hanging evrytm u reappear out of no where???wad's ur problem???i'm willing to spare my tym and call u up....wadeva lah....i'm sick and tired of my life oredi...thanx to people, I DUN EVEN KNOW WAD I WANT IN LIFE.....evrything seems not enough....but wen evrything is enough, i have nothing......i dun fit in anywhere....honestly i dun....evryday i grow hating myself more than d day b4.....sometymz i feel as if i'm faking evry smile i portray....AAAARRGGHH.....i wanna runaway!!!!!and ppl.....can u try to learn and put ur shoes on sombody else's??can u ppl stop being annoying especially wen i'm FASTING?????PLEASE.....p/s let hope dat my nxt entry be a jovial one.... mardiana gerl... cant wait to meet u up......
Sigining Off @ [ 12:15 AM ]
annoying people annoyz me so....
Sigining Off @ [ 12:14 AM ]
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Saturday, September 09, 2006
MY LIFE IS GETTING MORE CMPLICATING...
Sumtyms it juz irks me wif ppl's behaviour... be it my family, colleauges frenz or juz anyone.... Eversince i start work, ppl keep saying dat i have no tym for other things in lyfe than weq..... wenever i'm bz and feel lyk doing my weq.... my frenz will ask me out.....wen i say i'm not free, they simply couldnt understand and bombarded me with sarcasm.... but wen i make myself free for them, last minute cancellation or they juz dun haf d tym... and s a nurse who had been with ppl all day long.... and being a human being myself i can tell whether sum1 is obligated to be with me or not.... and it hurts wen u can feel dat d person is pretending to enjoy going out wif u...... if i can understand dat others r bz weqing and hf no tym for me.... why cant they??? weqing in a clinic is not so free okay.....sumtymz i wonder why others can haf fun.... whereas i cant.... i hate it so much when i'm so looking forward to go out with my frens, all plans and hopes was cancelled at d very laz minute.... sumtymz at diz point of tym, i juz wanna shut my doors frm anyone or evryone and let my paperwork distract me frm all these minor heartbreaking nonsense dat is already breaking my heart........ yes steph they're not human beings dat i can share my problems with..... but they are d things dat kept me busy rather than thinking wad's bothering me.... wat am i suppose to tell my frenz???? dat i dun feel dat i fit in anywhere??? dat i feel dat they dun deserve a fren who is emotionally disturbed and hypersensitive????? dat i will nvr fit in wif ppl who is so carefree and can enjoy lyfe??? i wanna enjoy life too.... but wherever i go.... i will always here this.... kau nie slow lah... kau nie lambat arh kau nie ketinggalan zaman arh.... why cant dey see dat it hurts??? y cant dey tell dat i cant enjoy wif ppl lyk dem if i keep on listening to those type of remarks.... y cant dey say dat dats d reason y i cant fit in... y cant dey see dat dat is d reason i rather go out by myself and learn things myself...... aini, guess wat?? they'll nvr understand.... and aini, i dun think u're fated to have fun...... forget of having fun..... forget it.....
Sigining Off @ [ 12:50 AM ]
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harlows...
hai fwenz.... sorie for not updating for such a long time... been very busy... who says dat working in a clinic is easy job?stressful but tolerable lah so far(sofa kerusi meja).....
i enjoyed working there.... lotsa fun events lining up for my future experience... juz returned from family day today... shiok.... took part in their football match.... my oub team is known as black baeuty coz we're the only female teams and wearing black.... we won eventhough we challenge the winning team.... we won... but the first prize goes to the other team instead of us... so depressing... say sorry........
after that my operation executive, ms dezima, sent safiah and her kid home....then aliff, our last minute player, home... then sent me to hougang for my cousin's bday...thanxx many2 the very2 yeah kak dezi........ my cousin, after a few months i didnt see him coz he went overseas finally met him... took photos wif him.....lots... will post ASAP... he's with emirates.... as an air steward...haizz... he's freaking good looking to me.... enjoyed chit chatting wif him..... wanna know his name? he used o be one of cleo's top eligible bachelor as well as manja'ssome competition...can't remember what it is.... k.... his name is ALFRED FADLY BIN ABDULLAH KHAN......if i'm not mistaken that's his real name lorr.... or it's the other way round.... wateva it is, he's my cousin.....miz u sey abg fadly....k lah i gtg... c u all nxt d tym...
Sigining Off @ [ 1:34 AM ]
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